Coming Out of the Clouds

Maybe it’s obvious, but digging about in the brain can have some deleterious effects. My greatest fear from the start of this adventure in brain science and chemistry from the beginning of this adventure in brain structure and chemistry has been a potential loss of function — of cognitive ability. Thinking is fundamental to my life in terms of enjoyment (“figuring stuff out” and social interaction . Is my need  greater than others?. I doubt it. But the act of  thinking is fundamental to my being .  So when the surgeon said I’d have some vision issues, it concerned me. After the first major surgery on July 27, the After the first surgery, my recovery was speedy physically but vision issuesmanifested in the most curious way. I began to see amusing figures floating in spaceAfter the first major surgery on July 27. This manifested in the most curious ways. I began to see amusing figures floating in space–Little glyphsdrawn in pen and ink it appeared, that looked as if they drawn in mid-air in pen. Yes. Hallucinations. I was entertained however. Especially when Marvin the Martian appeared on a nurse’s shoulder.

The best waswhen a very attractive goat skin cap floated out of the wall directly at me. It had a nice little brim and was covered in brown and white goat hair. it seemed as if I could have reached out for it and put it on. Fantastic.

These hallucinations have largely gone, but sometimes when a group of people is walking toward me on the sidewalk, a gnome-like creature will join them on their trek. There’s a name for this:”peduncular hallucinosis.but don’t expect me to go on about my invisible friends.”  They aren’t that interesting. And conversation doesn’t seem to be their strong suit — at least with me, so lucky for you I won’t be going on about my invisible friends..

The other difficulty is a change in vision generally It seems as if my glasses are dirty all the time. The surgeon predicted some vision issues due to the resection location: the right frontal lobe. I can get around fine. Public trnsport presentspresents no issues. the biggest frustration is reduction in my left peripheral vision. I haven’t been driving since my first seizure — since it’snot allowed by law just in case one occurs while on the road… And the worst effect has been rather  cloudy thinking. Again — resolving now. The first sign I was coming out of the clouds was, oddly enough, waking in the middle of the night — but I awoke thinking and solving some problem or another.